Don't you know this will end
When I find another way
To live without you again
So let's try not to waste any time

I know now
Feelings can change
You've shown me how
Just 'cause I lost my job, moved in your house
Don't make me a piece of shit loser now

I didn't know
You could be so cruel
It didn't show in your
Pretty little face and your tender caresses
That's what I thought about when you were in my bed

So you put on a suit
And you make all our money
But I care for our child
And that precious boy is all we have

Hold on to nothing
I'm holding on to nothing
But a memory of what used to be
Five years ago
When I loved you

I'm sorry today
I'm sorry today I can feel for you
And we look the other way
And try to get better not worse today

the honeymoon's over now
the honeymoon's over

I'm not afraid
To ask you the questions
'Cause I want to hear
About indescretion
I want to know
I want to know all these things that I need to let go
Did you take off your shoes?
Was it romantic?
Did you meet Mr. Willy?
Did you fuck him fantasticly?
I can't find my way home
'Cause she's the only one I've ever known
That I could love and trust until this day
What am I to do I'm so dismayed
I'll find another lay
I'm not afraid
To dip into anger
And take my place
Among the men who have come before me
I can't find my way home
'Cause she's the only one I've ever known
That I could love and trust until this day
What am I to do I'm so dismayed
I'll find a better lay
I know she'll fade away
I hope she fades away

If you're trying to find your way home
Do not look in my eyes
But if you're trying to be truthful to yourself
Take a good look
A cop a good feel
And take a deep breath
And touch your face to mine
If you're trying to be faithful
Do not look in my eyes
But if you're trying to be truthful to yourself
Take my hand
And lie with me
And we can sleep in these dirty sheets
I'll pick your scabs
And you can bleed
Inside of me
Falling down
Don't know if I'm ready for you now
But I've been looking in your eyes
And I've been thinking about myself
Can you help me cope with shame?
I know it's wrong
But I'll find time to cross this line
I'll find some time to cross this line
I know she'll come for me
I know she'll come

And though you sit all alone
You pretend that you're not home
And if I knock you ignore
You don't want to score again
And you can blame it on your wife
But I'm not too tired to fight
And you can say that I'm no cure
But I know you better
Hey, you're lying
Because you can't afford
To be so sure
That you have no one to
Hold you like you always wanted
And touch you so you're always haunted
By the feeling that you get
When you're inside of me
So take some time and you'll discover
What it's like to be my lover
And the feeling that you get
When you're inside of me
And in your hands you hold the pain
A thousand tears of yesterdays
And if you're taking my advice
Lose the ring or lose your life
I'm trying to find another way
For you to
Hold me like you always wanted
And touch me so you're always haunted
By the feeling that you get
When you're inside of me
So take some time and you'll discover
What it's like to be my lover
And the feeling that you get
When you're inside of me
So I'm going to tell her
That we're doing fine
And then you can leave her
We'll fuck all the time
And then you'll be mine
All mine

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The sky turns grey as I look for a shore
The ocean sways as my purple fingers pull through all they can
To hold all this weight upon my head
So I can breathe above the water that I tread
To my surprise, my arms -- they are strong enough
To make me feel like I can walk on the water
And I'm still alive
'Cause I don't want to die in the ocean
So I'm going to tread for a day
Under the pouring rain
I close my eyes as I try to pretend
The sun is strong as I lay upon a beach beside my wife
Then a wave crashes up against my head
It's hard to breathe beneath the water that I tread
My arms grow tired as the waves become strong enough
To let me know I'll never walk on the water
But I'm still alive
'Cause I don't want to die in the ocean
So I'm going to tread for a day
Under the pouring rain
You run and you wait and you're late
It's not enough
You're working
You're searching
You're earning
It's not enough
But I'm still alive
'Cause I don't want to die in the ocean
So I'm going to tread for a day
Under the pouring rain
I hate the rainy days
It's been so long since I've had a chance
Endless searching kills the romance
I've been waiting for my star to shine
And I've been working all of the time
You run and you wait and you're late it's not enough
You're working you're searching you're jerking off
It's not enough
The conversation debating
It's not enough
You're playing relating
Procreating again

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I always knew the day would come
When you would ask to know about
The war in Vietnam and how I stumbled through those days
So I'll say I was seventeen when I entered the marines
And on the 10th of June in '69 I shaved my head and got in line
So I could learn to run away
And I'm still running from the pain
So when you go down to your park
And look upon that wall of shame
Thank the stars that I'm not there
And as you scroll across the tragedy of 60,000 names
And you pause to wonder
Where have I been?
Please try to understand I left a piece of me in 'Nam
For every life that I have saved there is a life I took away
So when I try to put the puzzle back it never seems complete
And though I try to eat and sleep
You know I can't 'cause I have PTSD
Hey I'm still running from the pain
And no my medication never takes it all away
So when you go down to your park
And look upon that wall of shame
Thank the stars that I'm still here
And as you scroll across the tragedy of 60,000 names
I'll pray you never have to fear for your life
They took it all away

This brilliant star's been fading
Bright light has dimmed to grey
Who do you call when all is gone?
I cannot say

And some will lead the way
As others try not to fail

I would come back to follow you

And as I wake up wanting
I know not who to blame
Do I deserve this?
Did I earn this space from you?

She will not say
As she leads the way

And I would come back to follow you

All she wanted was to be there
When her daddy came home
But that hope faded...
Now her sister's gone
And she's the only one her mom can blame

Gina don't you cry 'bout what your momma said
Gina don't you cry 'bout what your mom can't explain

Why don't you stay, with me
We'll find our place without them
Stay, with me, alone

I don't know what I'm supposed to do for you
But something tells me I'm the one who's got it all to lose
I know your sister's gone
And I know your father's gone
And I know you're not to blame

Gina don't you cry 'bout what your momma said
Gina don't you cry 'bout what your mom can't explain

Why don't you stay, with me
We'll find our peace without them
Stay, with me, alone

Well I've never really known Jesus
He's just a myth floating around my head
But I've seen the faith of a million Cubans
And I've never really thought about Heaven
And I just don't believe in Hell
But my mother-in-law dreams the future in color
She dreams in color
One more day I find my head is spinning
As I contemplate the pros and cons
Of something I never believed in
One more day I feel I must be growing wiser
Another day to find another way to believe in something good
Every now and then I feel sorry for myself for feeling lonely
Am I so empty inside?
Did your boy really die upon your cross just to save me?
And did he?
One more day I find my head is spinning
As I contemplate the pros and cons
Of something I never believed in
One more day I feel I must be growing wiser
Another day to find another way to believe in something good
Salvation